Well, I have been depressed the last few days. The end of the competition is close...but with the muscle weight gained.. I fear my goal is unattainable now with the timeframe left... But...truely.. I wasn't in it for the cash anyway. Sure I am competitive, and I HATE to lose.... But...I realize in the long run this was a good place to restart. Genghis Grill got me where I needed to be and put my mind in the right place... They gave me a true reality check.... It has made me accountable for my weight... After all... Noone else can lose it...but me... My success depends solely on my actions..... And having this blog...and posting on facebook, twitter, and sparkpages keeps it real for me(and makes me accountable for my actions). I have people rooting for me..... So there is no way I am going to fail.... ;) It's just going to take longer than a few months....
I am actually going to try roller skating next week... I have been since I was 18.... I really hope they have 4 wheel skates(and I don't mean roller blades either).... Pity party is over.... I am over it... Tomorrow is a new day..... And hey miracles can happen.... :)
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